I held it together until...

School is beginning and preparations are being made.
Stressful.

Wedding planning is coming to the end, but busy as ever.
Stressful.

Housework is never ending.
Stressful.

Working on a relationship with my future husband.
Key word: Work.

Allergies are kicking me in the head.
The pain equals a sleep deprived and less productive teacher, apartment owner and future wife-y.
Stressful.

Package being stolen.  
LAST STRAW!

I was handling the stress of life until our package was stolen. We purchased an ottoman for my fiance's parents. It was delivered by FedEx and they left it at the front door of our building. We had stepped out to make the last walk through at our wedding venue when it was delivered. We didn't give them permission to leave a package, but they claimed on our online receipt that we didn't specify a signature was necessary. I am so sad. I just couldn't hold it together. I bawled as I walked back from checking the mail.

My List of Not-So-Peaceful Thoughts:
1. I've never seen the option "no sign necessary!" (My fiance was the one who purchased it online and I don't blame him.)
2. I've always had to sign for past FedEx packages. Grr.
3. I'm truly disappointed in my apartment complex neighbors.


How do I solve this problem when we can't afford to just purchase another $80+ ottoman?
Lawyers, any advice?

• I'm going to contact FedEx.
• Post notices in the hallways & entrances for the lost soul to return the package to the rightful owners.
• Tell apartment owners someone stole it and to ask them to search for my lost ottoman. (Doubtful, but I'll have my proof of purchase.)
• In desperation, go door to door crying for the package that is suppose to be a gift for a cancer patient who is fighting for his life & TO PLEASE RETURN IT.

 I return to Matthew West's song Strong Enough for comfort. I shed tears now hoping I can hold it together for all my roles in life and I know I can't do this without God's help. West's lyrics say it so well. "I know I'm not strong enough to be everything that I'm suppose to be. I give up. I'm not strong enough. Hands of mercy won't you cover me. Lord I'm asking you to be strong enough."

Strong Enough By: Matthew West

Side note: My father is doing the best out of all his nurse's patients. He is feeling more sunburn, tired, sore and less hungry. He began using his feeding tube today. He is very lucky. Based on how he's doing, he'll heal quickly. I hope they're right.

I pray he makes it to my wedding and is able to walk me down the aisle. I pray he is able to hold his grand babies. I pray he finds the courage to live his life to fullest when he is done with treatment. May he find comfort and joy in the Lord.
Amen.